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Nov. 10th, 2009 @ 05:52 pm laundry and new phone
Current Mood: listless
Yep, I'm at the laundry mat with my new phone. It's pretty sweet. Samsung Gravity 2 to be exact. I have internet for a month free of charge and I thought it would be nice to write something while I wait for my laundry too dry. Tings have been better. The bedbugs I believe have died (YES!), and I am on my day off with my spiffy new phone. Now when I get back home I'm going to begin my search for a new and better job. I can't tolarate my current job anymore than my past look at it. Although I always knew that this was a temporary situation to help my living expenses and bills, but not my career path. I have some weird gut feeling that by the end of the year I'm bound to land some new job or hobby thaat will lead me in some sort of new direction. To tell you the truth I'm looking to get a nice telescope to better see the beautiful night sky. Also I'm about to commence my studies for the GRE. My last attempt was a failure do to my bedbug situation and moving in to my new apartment, etc., etc., etc. Yep also just being utterly lathargic. Let's witness where I go from here.
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Oct. 17th, 2009 @ 12:56 pm Life like Eddie Murphy & Martin Lawrence
I think writing could be a hassle sometimes. Especially if you have so many things going on at the same time.
So I moved and thought everything would be okay. Yet, that was just the beginning of my unfortunate events that were about to unfold. Bedbugs became my burden, and my battle. I have never in my life experienced this shit. I moved and never thought this would be a problem whatsoever. Some bullshit exterminator came and sprayed, stayed away from my apartment for three days, came back and tested my room out. Bedbugs got me on my knuckle, cheek, and arm. WTF! My housemate and I spoke with the landlord and I explained that we can't stay here like this. I hope my problem gets fixed.
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Aug. 11th, 2009 @ 09:30 pm My stuff from Sunrise to Sunset
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Vivaldi
What a boring day off here at my house.  Trying to save money and take care of things while I hope to move with my friend and get a better job.  Well, ever since Bob left in an unfortunate way, but good, a new housemate Cesar has arrived and has been on my good side, that is getting my old drunkass housemate Bob out, to lying to my face about using my cookware and food.  Also, lying about never throwing particular matter in a recycling waste basket for the house, and especially throwing a piece of chicken that rotted for days in the laundry room.  Ugh, he even mentions to my face, that he is clean and respects others personal possessions.  Fucken prick!

First off, what a liar this guy is.  I asked him this morning if he was using my cookware, and supplies.  So he lies to my face and says I haven't used your stuff, after explicitly explaining to him that I am a vegan and it is very bothersome when someone uses my cookware for their food.  Ugh, this really bothers me! Number one, I don't use your stuff, without asking first if I can.  Second, my diet and my cookware go hand in hand.  I never wanted any non-vegan things ever cooked on my stuff.

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Just a moment ago, Cesar apologized to me.  I thanked him, but truly didn't believe him.  I want to see how this goes.  But for the record I know his ass has touched my stuff!
Ugh!

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I am hoping tomorrow will be better.  Work than pick up Scott to check out a place in yonkers.  Then drop off his ass in NYC.  Maybe see Lucy for Dinner?  I hope she feels better.
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Jul. 9th, 2009 @ 07:34 pm Green Grass Subhumans
Current Mood: awake
I just spotted a baby deer trying to catch a rabbit in my front lawn.  Oh, I have never seen a sight.  This past weekend I noticed a fawn all by itself from Lucy's parents house across the street.  Her mother must have been injured, died, or abandoned it.  But earlier I saw not just the one, but two prancing around together eating from my lawn.  I just woke up from a nap, and spotted them.  It was really a sight to see the rabbit hop away from such a curious, and intelligent animal.  I can't wait 'till Tiffany and Andy come see where I live.  Both of them recently moved to NYC from the capital.  Andy is headed towards being an M.D.  This past tuesday, I met up with Tiffany and rode around NYC and had pizza, vegan ice cream and beer.  It was all so good.  Especially from an all day ride.

Regardless, I'm about to see Subhumans at the NYC Knitting Factory.  It's going to be sweet!  I haven't seen them in about 3 yrs from what I remember.  I love them!

Soon my 27th birthday with Q-Tip in central park, and my vegan friendly chinese dinner! Mmmm.
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Jul. 1st, 2009 @ 07:18 pm Stinks
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Classical
What a rough morning that turned out to be an okay day.  As I headed to work at eight in the morning, my usual wednesday mornings consist of bringing in the delivered goods and pricing and stocking.  After the stores' goods were in I was thrown in a situation, without even thinking, of signing for the delivery. It was my fault knowing I should have had that fat lazy bitch come over and sign for. Later she got mad about me signing it.  She even pressed at me about how one of my co-workers had more experience than me. Bullshit! I have dealt with customer service ever since, fuck, after highschool.  Then on top of that she throws in my face that the plumbing situation is all my general manager's responsibility.  What a fucken drunk.  I called OSHA on the store's leakage of the sink pipes below.  I was sick of it! OSHA, I hope you fuck them over.  This place is utterly un-organized and stinks!
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Mar. 19th, 2009 @ 01:10 pm Jersey
Current Location: Red Bank, NJ
Yep, you guessed it.  Just like my subject line, I'm in New Jersey.  You may ask why?  Well my brother is out here for his work.  He comes out here because he manages some stuff on his line of work as a lab manager for Broadcom.  Regardless, I am also having my struts replaced on my vehicle.  Much needed.  More on that later.

So as I wait for my brother to get off work, I thought I can write about what's happening in my life.  I had my interview with The Environmental Control Board of New York City, and it went very well about a week and a half ago.  The Branch Manager was very impressed on my qualifications and experience.  He was really intrigued about my usage of "structure", and my "people person" personality.  I came out of the interview accomplished, knowing how well I did.

I started volunteering for Per Scholas, and it was good to see Ken again, VP of Strategic Partnerships.  He asked how my job search was going and explained how slow it was.  He surprisingly mentioned he knew someone at the Council on the Environment of NYC, and actually called him when I was there to help volunteer for Comp2Kids.  He left a message and a few days later asked me in an email to forward me my resume to send to him.  Let's see where it goes from here.

So in the meantime, I just have to continue to pursue a new job to get out from Mrs. Greens.  I just can't wait to get out of there.  Hopefully by the end of the month.  I wish to for this to happen, and soon.


Next, I want to state that people living near or in New York to please join me in national march on Wall Street.  Check out www.bailoutpeople.org for further info.  It's just not a New York thing, this is an event worth fighting for where ever you are.  From the unemployed to people just pissed off at the system.  I know I am!
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Feb. 25th, 2009 @ 10:29 pm Blur
Current Mood: frustrated
How do I put it?  Work. Well work stinks and I dislike what's going on.  My boss is cutting hours and I'm one of a few who will suffer through all this.  I can't stand being thrown on this day, and that.  All I want is a set schedule I can work through.
There are so many more problems, yet I just won't describe to build up my frustration about how unorganized it is there.

At least I have an interview next month for something far better than this junk-ass job.  I am really looking forward to it.  It really surprised me that the Environmental Control Board of NYC called.  It will pay much better than what I am getting paid now.  More on that when the time comes.

From all my trouble at work, I am going to begin volunteering for two organizations.  First there is a farm nearby called Hilltop Hanover Farm literally near my house.  I can walk there, but need to figure out what trails lead me there and back, I'm sure it's the same (duh).  Last week I decided to attend a volunteer orientation, and by god, this place needs some help.  Since I have a fairly knowledgeable background on Environmental Issues, as well as outreach and stirring up trouble (in a positive way), I look forward to helping the staff at the farm.  I'm actually looking forward to helping them out tomorrow with my housemate, Slava.

As far a the second organization, Per Scholas, it will be helping families to improve and/or learn basic computer programs like MS word, and excel for example on some Saturdays next month.  I also look forward to meeting some new people.

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Feb. 19th, 2009 @ 05:11 pm Next Opportunity, this year
Current Location: Katonah, NY
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: National Public Radio
I am so glad to be home after a long day of work, that I surely wish to change from.  I really am getting sick of not being responsible of anything.   From getting laid off from a responsible job to general bullshitting around at a Natural Foods Store, I pretty much am frustrated, pretty much at myself.
Encompassing the tough economic times of the country, well the world to be exact, it's hard to find anything that I know I can do. It really comes down to an opportunity.  I need a job opportunity!

I'm excited about this Saturday! I'm heading upstate to Bard College for an open house on a Masters program which I have been interested for the last year. I have some goals which I will accomplish this year.  Those are (in no particular order):
  • Take the GRE this year, for my Grad-school applications next year
  • improve my writing!
  • volunteer
  • get a better job
  • visit VT, and home
I need to feel how I felt before I moved away for college.  I need to get on the boat, metaphorically speaking, that will pave my future into a better state of mind, for my own well being.  I need to make my happiness continue to move forward.  Oh, and get some rest!
That's what I have to do, right now!
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Feb. 5th, 2009 @ 10:19 am What a time
Current Location: Katonah, NY
Current Music: Amebix - The Darkest Hour
Shit this week has gone by so fast. Last week I saw Amebix in NY and that shit was amazing. I will have pictures up sometime soon. It was so good!

So much is happening and new possibilities could arise, and if I don't make anything happen I am going to stay stuck at my crappy job which isn't going anywhere. I feel like going home, but I am not a failure. I hear some people say that going back makes you stronger. Only time will tell what my true intentions are.

I really need to explore the nature out here. It is so nice. I am waiting to go to VT with Lucy sometime maybe next month, if not, April.

Can't wait for this winter to be over with, but at the same time I enjoy it here and there.

Just need a new hobby.
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Feb. 2nd, 2009 @ 10:03 am Rights filled with shit
Current Location: Brooklyn, NY
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Dreaming Dead
Yep the subject line is true.
No accountability among the rich and the poor are always screwed.
I am so glad I did not vote, because voting is a farce.
I am glad Obama is in rather than a rightwinger sociopath.

Hopefully heading to make an impression on some possible interview.
Otherwise a nice clear and warmer day in NY.

Missing so many things.
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Jan. 17th, 2009 @ 09:57 pm Soothing relief
Current Location: Brooklyn, NY
Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: Swing
Sitting in a nice cozy cafe in Brooklyn's South Slope, my feet are cold, and I'm waiting for Lucy to come back from an event she wishes she was not at. She's doing this for her brother, mainly for a connection in regards to his music. Did I mention, his band is The Antlers, look them up on myspace or their website, whosoever reads this. Regardless, I need to make an effort to write a whole lot more. I recently went to the gotham writers workshop class for free. It was fun! Creative writing will be my next course with them. At least ten minutes a day will have to do with writing. It is a commitment I will of course fail, but I am eager to begin this. I am so glad all these years I have been on livejournal. It makes me happy to look back on all my posts to realize what the fuck I was into, or feeling. Makes me feel old too.

I'm hungry and feeling some sort of food to make me comfortable.
What shall I eat?

Tomorrow another day.
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Nov. 21st, 2008 @ 07:30 am Quick thoughts
Current Mood: awake
Dear Journal,

I really wish I could get a nice job now. Today I have an interview at Kingsborough College in Brooklyn. I really hope the interview goes really well. I would love to work at an educational institution, it is my ideal setting.
Please wish me all the very best, because I need it.
Please help me today my God. I really need your blessings and your comfort in such tough times.
I really want to continue living here in NY. It would make me so happy to know I will get a job very soon.

Love,
E

P.S. I will write very soon.
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Nov. 3rd, 2008 @ 10:15 pm A day away
Current Mood: calm
I just came back from Block Island, RI after Lucy's parents let me stay over for a night at their vacation home. It was well worth it. I had a great time by cooking pasta and reading. I was really tranquil and I would be up for going back in the future if possible. Cathy and Jeff are so nice to let me stay over all by myself.
Now being back in my home, it kinda feels weird for some strange reason I don't yet understand. I really believe I am ready to make something for myself here in NY. It felt as if the trip begun to churn something in the air for me. I wished upon a shooter star, and I hope my wish will come true. I am not one to believe such things, but what a clear starry night, and cold too.
I felt in peace for once, and got high too.

Tomorrow is election day, and I just know Obama will win. I have no doubt it will happen.
As for me, I am working and won't vote. I personally believe your vote doesn't count. Think about it. This "Capitalistic Democracy" is not here for you, it is here for those who rule you. The electoral college marks out your vote, and you and I can't do a single thing about it. Look what happened in 2000. Any questions?

I love BI.
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Oct. 22nd, 2008 @ 11:02 pm Post to Post
Current Mood: lethargic
So after a long day of getting up, and then heading to my part-time job, I get home to making some canned soup, and watch Ghost Hunters. I have been a fan since it began, and will continue to watch this fascinating show.

I feel better today than my previous days. Tomorrow I have to head to the unemployement office and report to continue receiving my payments I deserve. Peekskill is a nice town along the Hudson River, to bad it's far from a lot of places, but I do enjoy its small atmosphere. So, head there early and take care of business, then maybe, just maybe head to the Botanical Garden for some photos of Kiku, despite my utter spite to particular personnel whom I worked for.

Surely better things will come about, and I just have to stay focused for a better future.
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Oct. 20th, 2008 @ 10:36 pm Into infinate obscure thoughts that haunt my silly little brain
Current Mood: disappointed
The best way to explain myself right now is how I feel. I am really missing something, well, a lot in life right now. I am no longer a part or what seems to me a part of someone else's life, Lucy. Her and I broke up before I came back home for a visit, and I am just angry over the fact that I feel taken for granted in so much that I have given her. She just wants to be friends. I know how that goes from previous relationships. When will I ever meet a girl who gets me? Who can fulfill my needs and wants? I know there is no such thing as a perfect relationship, and I am fine with this fact. I just feel used. I moved over here to see what I can create for myself, and I feel like a failure on one half, as well as my other half at the moment. Since my goddam so called termination from the Botanical Garden, everything went downhill. Lady wanted her time, and I was left on my own. I haven't been on my own for a while, because I felt a such a strong connection with Lucy when I meet her at UCSC.

Fuck I am so angry, angry at my mistake to give so much, and be disappointed when the fog has cleared my stubborn personality.
I don't regret moving across country for many things I won't ever forget. I love NY, and I love my home in California too! I surely miss my past, and kinda sometimes what to relive some times. I know it can't happen here, and I wish, just wish better things will occur with better people.

I do really hope I have the opportunity to work for this culinary arts non-profit in mid-town Manhattan. I just know I can impress the founder and president when I get to meet him in the very near future.

What should I be doing during a time like this? I am so lethargic, and have no desire to make anything happen for myself. All I want to do is curl up in a whole and die sometimes.

I just finished watching Lost in translation, and found it to be a great film. Well put Sophia. Don't laugh at me because I never have seen this yet.

Lots to do tomorrow. Going to the unemployment office to reschedule, if possible just complete the task while I am there. Beyond that, another day towards nothing I see for my own future, yet. I am so pessimistic!
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Oct. 16th, 2008 @ 12:55 am Yesterday...
Current Mood: awake
Should be the past. I hope tomorrow makes way for my future. Otherwise, I don't know what to do.

I feel like things are flushing down a drain, yet I want to stay positive. No help, and certainly no love.

Lucy and I don't agree on many things, and that's fine. But what I want her to know is I have given her unconditional love. I never expected anything in return, other than love too.

Not one to create something with now, don't see it happening in the near future. I am just frustrated at myself.

No comments needed.

Wish me luck on my 2nd interview for what I hope and guess is a position that will improve my current situation in life; comfort.

See ya...
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Sep. 22nd, 2008 @ 10:33 am Thoughts
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: The Cure-Wild Mood Swings
What a waste of a day, and it's only 10:30 in the morning. I just want to be handed things for me but I know that's not going to happen. I made a move to New York for a reason, well two. Start a relationship with Lucy, and begin my career in this part of the world.

Ever since the Garden "fired" me (I don't really like to think of it this way), things have been really depressing. Last week I had an interview with the GreenApple Corps of NYC, and I hope I showed them my personality, and experience in working with people and the great outdoors. I really want to work outdoors. It will make me happy, and have me doing something productive for not only myself, but for others to enjoy and understand that folks do this for a living, but for everyone else.

I should write in my journal everyday to express myself and improve my writing. It will get me to be productive and encourage me to move forward.

Things to accomplish today:

1. Pick up my 3 piece suit from the "green" dry cleaner;
2. Pick up food from Mrs. Greens:
3. Resumes;
4. Resumes;
5. Resumes!;
6. Read David Bacon's Illegal People (which is a great book describing the problem that capitalism is creating the flux of immigration around the world and specifically in the U.S.) I will write more about this fascinating book later.

Beyond this, visit Lucy after she gets off work to chat about our relationship and my problems.

Love,
E
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Sep. 10th, 2008 @ 11:33 pm 35 Weeks
Current Location: Katonah, NY
Current Mood: crappy
The last time I wrote on this journal was 35 weeks ago. That's almost half a year? Right? Anyways, I no longer am employed at the Garden. Those bastards let me go, with no real good explanation. Towards the end I no longer wanted to be affiliated with my immediate supervisor. If she were gone, I would have enjoyed my company.

Ah, so back to the search of my next move in life. It has been a week since my departure, and I have only sent out my resume twice. Shame on me. I am so lethargic, hence my last payroll day being on the 17th of this month. Then, savings kicks in. I am so glad I made a commitment to making my savings account.

I hate being cooped-up in my house all day. I want to play, yet I live in a region or land I never grew up in. I sadly say I miss everyone back home, and wish I had them here.

I can't wait to get a new opportunity to really challenge myself for some unknown cause. Well, to those I apply to really.

It's almost midnight and I really have to make something of myself real soon. Until again, I will write again, and I really have to.
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Jan. 8th, 2008 @ 07:55 pm Fact
Did you know there really exists a Tofu powered lawnmower
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Jan. 8th, 2008 @ 07:50 pm New York Madness
Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: Emperor - IX Equalibrium
Wow, what a rush life is becoming. I work now at work at The New York Botanical Garden in the Bronx. This place is surely to be a resume builder. Today is close to a month when I began. Good things in the horizon.

What ever happened to visiting Katie? She didn't call. I left her a message when I was back in California.

Write at life later.
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